Walking Earth



Walking along the afternoon beach, Pebble by pebble;
Surrounded by cushion clouds, Lowered to the sea.

Deeper, deeper, first to my ankles then knees,
Into the high seas then through the woods of greenery;
In the forest, pine trees and ever green stretch miles and miles,

The animals are slowly coming.

Deers, horses galloping across fields, Monkeys swinging in trees, eagles soaring;

Wings of all sizes flapping above,
Shadows, streaks of sunlight breaking through.

I see the blue sky, then the tribe comes for me,
Lying down I see their faces forming a circle;
Semi-conscious they put me in a carrier and take me up, they lead me up the mountains,
I am almost asleep, intoxicated by spells.

The pines, the pines, such fragrance lingers, Drumming from a distance comes louder and louder; They come and tear me apart,
Head on staff, bleeding but no blood.

Then they see me through, and throw me body to sea, Falling, falling deep into the ocean;
First the wind, then a dive, the fish come and go, Away with it.

Parts of me, scattered deep onto the seabed, As I fall deeper, then it darkens;
I lie at the bottom with corals and seaweed, Whales, sharks and angelfish greeting me.

Swimming freely, they are above my existence, I feel their shadows, the waves washing me; Their vibrations, the drumming continues, Thudding spontaneously.

Slowly, I rise, dark dark to light light, Then I am floating;
With the sun shining on my face, Wearing white, arms next to me, Fingers fixated.


I return back to earth,
Autumn leaves surrounding me,
Against my skirt;
My long hair, entangled to my body, like start dust and pollen.

The wood on the bark of beauty,
Horses continue to gallop, deers pouncing; Elephants stomping their feet like logs,
Ostriches gracing the fields and golden eye returns.

Pinewoods, with a gentle flicker I open my eyes,
Rich rain touching my shirt;
Droplets, making music and the sweet breeze blowing against me, Dancing water dripping from my head.

First my shoulder, then my elbow,
Creating a puddle in my skirt;
Collecting water like a reservoir,
Rising gracefully, I notice the animal kingdom with me.

They waited patiently staring into my eyes,
The monkeys call, elephants sounding their trunks, Deers waking the wild;
They ran countries to see if I would walk.

Marching alongside me,
They measure each footstep with theirs;
Galloping, panting, clawing their way through the forest, Into the open, orange fields.

We are many,
Taking place in this paradise; The sun rises as fast as sunset, The medicine man is here.

With a feather in one hand, and incense in another, We gather around the wood burnt fire;
Circles amongst circles
Gently we close our eyes.

He rubs our neck, shoulders and back, With love and affection;
Sending the dark spirits up,
Adding oil to our foreheads.

Breaking in the pine air,
Disarming the heavenly skies;
Reaching out for courage, love and friendship, Getting rid of shadow energies in us.


Vibrations, lights excites energy, Magic lights surround us;
Glowing trails and whisks of tobacco, Puffs of smoke, loud coughing.

Touching his heart with his left hand,
Clasping onto hope and forgiveness;
Feel the love and let go,
As the spine straightens, his head bends forward.


Written in October 2015




Mesmerised, we are blessed. HT



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When people say, ‘Don’t judge a book by its cover’, it really is easier said than done.

Recent events in particularly with regards to the death of a law colleague, has made me think once again of what is wrong with our society.

Discussions on being ‘Burntout’, ‘Depressed’ and ‘Stressed’ are not new, yet why is it still a taboo subject amongst professionals?  Is it because of perfectionism?  Or the perception of perfectionism?  Is it because of stress from others?  Or is it because of stress that comes from within?

The face that masks the truth of the reality with which one faces, is much deeper and complicated.  There is probably no simple answer or solution to whatever the problems that that particular individual faces.  Yet, what could have been the problem that made them decide that they needed to end their life?

When we compare and contrast jobs and roles in our society that require heros, we think of fire fights, doctors and surgeons and these are the very roles that tend to have the highest levels of stress.  What support is the community providing?  And how understanding is the profession when it comes to being compassionate to the demands on these very individuals?

Technology has been picking up speed, like never before.  The early adopters are embracing these challenges as a journey of a lifetime, whilst late adopters, particularly in senior roles are fearing the potential changes that may require of them.

The changes are not a reflection of what they are, or what they may be, but rather a test of how they respond or react to such changes.  Such uncertainty life tests us, but at what point, does such a test become too much or one too many?

I ask these questions and wonder whether we are misguided as to what ‘success’ is?

How do we value our lives?  And what alternatives are there, if one defines ‘success’ purely in terms of their job titles/ or outputs?

What solutions do you have and how would you engage a friend stuck in this mentality?

My concern is not that it happens, my concern is that it happens and there is little discussion or thought as to how and what and why.  How can we progress as a society, with all the modern developments if do not try to understand what happened?


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The Dark Knight of the Soul


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Some call it an inspiration for amazing art; others calling it a spiritual crisis? How we define it is very subjective, but from a personal experience, it can be very painful. It is the kind of pain, that one endures, when one feels the floor that they are standing collapses on them, though it is also where one can find peace and a renewed sense of self.

How do you describe The Dark Knight of the Soul? Like a darker version of Batman, it’s the shadow part of ourselves, a part that sometimes we may wish to reject, a part of ourselves that we may discard because it’s ‘not good enough’, yet ironically, it is truly part of us. Like two sides of the same coin, rejecting the heads means denying the tail, but actually it is physically impossible to separate the two. A coin is not complete without both heads and tails.

When I speak to people about their experiences, the larger central question is, ‘Who am I?’ Some describe it as a void, a no-man’s land; the title, status, unconscious source of identity that does not mean anything anymore.

A low point, before a high point, there is a silver lining in this experience. Some feel a kind of awakening to their purpose because this struggle is like the self wanting to align itself to who one really is. In other words there may be a mismatch between who one is and who one really is.

I’ve read some texts which describes who and what happens when we are in our Element. When we are in our element and aligned with who we are there is no struggle. If we love what we do, if we are passionate about the things we care, whatever problem we are facing, or need to solve is not really an obstacle in it’s truest sense; the ‘problem’ becomes an opportunity to grow, to manifest our magic and to really show case our talent.

In Ken Robinson’s book, The Element, a book which I highly recommend and refer back to, describes of peoples’ fears and insecurities, but actually are the very elements of talent in the individual. For instance, in his book he describes how a mother was anxious of her daughter’s inability to stay still, only to find after sessions of therapy that her daughter is really a gifted dancer. Her name is Gillian Lynne, one of the greatest choreographers of our time.

Also another example, there was a guy called Paul, he loved music but never really enjoyed music lessons at school. Nobody seemed to notice his musical talent at school, and he was even turned town by the choir of Liverpool Cathedral when he tried to join. Yes, this is Paul McCartney.

If we were to reframe The Dark Knight of the Soul and see it as an opportunity to slow down, if not stop for a moment, to actually reflect on where is this lost passion, who you really are? You might surprise yourself and find the answer within.

I read somewhere once, that when we are being our authentic selves, we are living in flow and at peace with ourselves. There is no struggle, there is no procrastination, spite or terror of doing what we don’t want to do. This actually makes sense. When we’re not honest with where we want to be, who we want to be, it can be one huge uphill struggle to keep up the act.

But if we are comfortable in our skin, and know despite our flaws, we are who we are and regardless of what slack others give us, we are truly, deeply happy. That’s all that really matters.

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Life Code according to Dr. Phil

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Some people think that Dr. Phil’s show are rather entertaining and in many ways they truly are.  Having read a number of his books, Life Code really stands out.

We come down to the nitty gritty of asking ourselves, what are our values, what do we stand by, what do we believe in, what motivates us, what makes us tick?  Does this feel overwhelming when we ask our selves these questions?

If we sit back and give ourselves a few minutes to reflect, the answer it may appear to be is actually, no.  In fact, these are questions we constantly, subconsciously ask ourselves, yet when nothing arises, we recycle the question or at least push the question to the back of our minds – really not wanting to answer them -today.

But as with all things that we do with procrastination is that the question/s pop back into the forefront of our minds, demanding an answer and at worst, arises at times when we least want or expect it.

The best examples would be when we’re put to the test.  In times of stress, in critical moments, when we feel it is either life or death or as seemingly harmless – a job interview.  So tell me, what motivates you to get of bed? Or what is your strongest value?  Or why do you do what you do?

There is nothing wrong with saying money, but is there something deeper.

Lying in one’s deathbed, as is shown from time to time, working harder is not what people pray or regret over.  It’s missing the kids growing up, it’s not being at a family gathering, it’s not having been more intimate with loved ones, it’s things that at the end of the day, make us human – The love and compassion which we strive for most, but in reality get’s given second place, why?

The conscious recognition that our subconscious fears, allows us to readjust our priorities and to say enough is enough.  Not necessarily kicking the bad, mundane job, but rather to say right, what is my passion?  What am I good at?  Why am I leaving that behind or better yet, why am I neglecting that?

As Christmas is around the corner, and New Year will come even sooner, many of us may attempt the commonly done-and-forgotten New Year Resolution.  Yet, how many of us will actually stick to it, pull through it and say yes I’ve made it come end of 2017.

One of my most aspiring Olympian friend would say, take it one step at a time, one bite at a time, one small goal at a time.  It makes total sense.

Rather than having life changing ambitions, let’s start small.  Being present in the moment, thankful for the things we have and being kind to the people around us- most importantly ourselves.

For all the rejections, bad behaviour, minor misgivings that happen to us on a daily basis- let’s make peace with it, daily.

I found myself speaking to a number of people during the week, describing our brains like rubbish bins.  Despite all the knowledge we have gained, the amount of IQ we have achieved, reality is, our brains also need down time, and if it’s over loaded, it’s overloaded!

If we want a clear mind after a busy hectic day, I encourage you to try cleaning the bin aka the brain daily at the end of the day.  How do I do that?

By visualising it, some imagine putting all their woes in a hot air balloon and sending it good bye, others see it as dumping it all in a large box and waving good bye in the delivery truck.  Whatever the matter or size, it provides a health dose of reflection.  Combine that with meditation at the end of the day, and it’s 5 pieces of fruit plus a booster.



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Riding the wave

In Eckhart Tolle’s recent discussion on ‘History and Evolution of Consciousness’, he shares with us nothing less than his brilliant understanding and insight into the human vulnerability.

What appears to lie at the heart of us work is his interest and concern on the ‘Ego’ the ‘I’.  To be able to say that, and I paraphrase, that he is a teacher when on stage, but he is like no other ordinary person when he steps down, it reminds us how important it is, to be at peace of who who are, not full of delusion from our jobs which may be in positions of power, or delusions which may or may not reflect who our authentic selves are.

To the question of how we react to others, particularly when negative arises, such as jealousy and spite, that perhaps giving inner thought to what our vulnerabilities are instead.  Speaking of power struggles and power dynamics, Eckhart Tolle presents a credible assessment of how vulnerable we are as human beings.  By being in our high selves, we can actually by pass a lot of things could easy add to the stress of every day life and at the same time, provide the empathy be it to our families, friends and colleagues knowing that what ever the trigger it may be, work is needed within them.

Such compassion, coupled with glimpses of humour, allows us to see how Eckhart Tolle can effortless present our flaws on a plate, without necessarily judging but observing.

Addressing our anxieties and concerns for the future and lament of the past, he emphasises the importance of living in the present and living in the Now.

For what choices and options we have in life, Eckhart Tolle encourages us to go with the flow, to be in the present moment where we can find happiness and peace.


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Being in the state of awareness and consciousness, is like seeing clouds passing and dissolving, passing and dissolving without necessarily arousing any feelings, need for attachment, but just being.

Using clouds as an analogy of our thoughts is very appropriate particularly when in our modern society, it is likely that we are bombarded with thoughts and images constantly.

Eckhart Tolle describes it as experiencing a joyful moment.  In sharing his awakening and discussions with a monk, the notion of zen is actually not having any thoughts.

Awareness – essence of consciousness, is also identifying what is arising from us and how we may or may not be projecting outwards on others.  What is this inner state of consciousness?  He provides an explanation of when we allow external matters having greater importance than what is inside us.  Example, the moment when we get upset of something, or angry we tend to notice everything that upsets us, even small things like someone not turning up an appointment or something taking too long, gets magnified out of proportions.

This ‘Unconscious ego’ perhaps plays out their role best when people drive on the road.  Notice road rage, how people feel angry when driving, when in essence they do not know the people on the road.  How about the unconscious person like the gush of wind?  People acting out their unconsciousness, and never really realising that it is not personal.

Do you get upset over small things?  Then beat yourself up about it afterwards?

Eckhart suggests letting go.  Asking – what do I bring to the situation?  Then matters get dissolved, as opposed to situations that arise into conflict situations.  He suggests that even places we deemed as peaceful places can give rise to conflict situations.  Even though people may be trying hard, the real work starts with coming back to self and self awareness.

The confusion of what is important, what is primary and secondary could be an alarm that we may have got our priorities wrong.  It’s ok, it’s an opportunity to bring ourselves back to the present moment – taking a deep breath, moving from a reactive state to the present moment.

At the moment of confusion, we have a choice and ask ‘What is really important here?’  Invite presence, and we may experience a shift in our thinking.  By witnessing that moment, and the recognition of choice, like changing gears in a car, we can step out of the moment of where we were thinking.  By reclaiming our/the consciousness from the troubled, emotional form, those negative thoughts collapses.

Like ice that melts, or water that evaporates – escaping the trap in thinking, we free ourselves and moves us closer to awakening.



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Getting out of pain

Eckhart Tolle recognises that we all experience pain.  Rather than trying to ignore, run, hide from it, he basically says don’t bother.

Instead be still with it, seeing it face on, and experience it.  By resisting the pain, we are likely to create more pain, more reaction and allow it to be – notice it, the fear, pain in the body, emotionally whatever it may be, allow it to be.

Eckhart speaks from his own personal experience, particularly fearful thinking.  What he calls ‘pain body’, not even labelling, just sitting with it.

The idea of noticing one’s sensations is very similar to Goenka Ji‘s teachings as well.  The idea that our body allows us to understand how we really feel, faster than our mind or before we have the chance to digest what we are really thinking.

Through realisation, the ‘who we are’ is found in the ‘looking’ rather than what we appear.  Eckhart emphasises the present and identifies the pain almost like a form of energy that can run through us, run past us and leave us, rather than allowing something to build in us, he offers a way to cut the vicious cycle which we may re-enact unconsciousness and allow that pain to remain and even at times grow.

‘Painbody’ distorts and creates dramas in our lives.  Using examples of how it is so easy to see people get angry at each other, having expectations and not realising what is going on in the other person’s life.  What pain is aroused is not new; but rather is old pain, childhood pain even inter-generational pain.

An example is when one says, ‘He let me down’, is potentially a judgement on a neutral situation.  By missing the simplicity of the event, sometimes we can create drama out of nothing.  According to Eckhart whatever the demands, ‘He/she does not understand me’ – creates pain, builds on pain that started long ago.

What difference does it make by thinking otherwise?  Try surrender.  Rather than thinking of defeat and failure.  Instead of putting up with situations that are unsatisfactory, surrender is the profound wisdom of yielding to rather than against the present situation.  To relinquish inner resistance and being in the present moment.  Appreciating things go wrong now and then, acceptance of what is frees us of attachments to the problems.  To surrender is to recognise the situation, no judgement of the now, no resistance, no emotional negativity, then take action to do all you can to get out of the situation.

Getting out of the situation – without anger, without negative emotions, but rather light having a flash night at dark when there is a great fog.  The light provides direction as to where you need to go, so rather than focusing on the dark fog, the torch allows us to focus and trust we are going where we need to go.

Eckhart eloquently describes the physical tensions we may experience when we resist.  Instead when we surrender, we dissolve the fear that manifests in us physically.  It is also a recognition and value of our very being.  This allows us to redirect our energy to go to our source and create and be who we really want to be – embracing that quality of surrendered action.

When we see clarity, we see things clearly; nature doing what she needs to do, grow and bloom naturally.




Thought activity

Echkart Tolle discusses fear and imaginary concerns where no action can remedy our concerns.

The power of such thoughts, the thought of being threatened, the notion that ‘the tiger is not in the room’-  By separating thought and reality, he makes a clearer distinction where the fearful thought is simply a thought, not a reflection at all.

When even a quiet room becomes or gives rise to a fear is by realising the destructive thought, ‘stepping out’ and taking a conscious step.  Recognising that this takes conscious awareness, it is a first step to de-identification, that the fear is not real, simply produced by the mind.

Echkart engages in such depth on the topic, which also touches on how at times we can project our own vulnerabilities on others.  When we realise the problem is internal rather than external, it takes courage to take a step inside to realise the very ‘problem’ one is trying to tackle with is a part of us.

A nightmare as he calls it – and by the same token, an awakening.  An awakening, because it is a realisation that it is part of us, yet at the same time something that can be ‘let go ‘ of.  The journey through a dark path is never easy, though by taking one step at a time, there is light at the end of the tunnel.





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